There was this particular fellowship where Rev. Temilolu Aliu asked us to pray for God to give us the fire of His glory and in all sincerity, I had no idea what it was but you should have seen the way I was shouting and begging ; "O God the fire of Your glory!!!!!!!’’
I mean, it was a sentence that contained both fire and glory, I just knew that I had to have it, I just knew that I had to burn for God, I knew that I wanted to His fire to consume me completely until I am completely dead to self and a hundred percent Him, until my flesh and its hold over me completely melts away, I knew that I wanted His glory to radiate in every area of my life, I knew that I want God to be more real to me than anything else, I knew that I desired a life changing encounter from God, I knew that I was very much tired of the status quo, of spiritual mediocrity and I needed God to take me deeper, I knew that I needed a deeper revelation of Him, I knew that I cannot hear that there is something like the fire of God’s glory and be satisfied with not having it, I just knew that I had to have it and that was all I needed, the expectations, desires and longings of my heart were enough to push me to tears asking and pleading for the fire of God’s glory. It was a very intense period of prayers I tell you.
Do you ever just sit and think to yourself, "I know that there is more to this God and I need to know, more than anything else in this world, in the entire universe, I need to delve deeper, I need a revelation, I want to see what David saw, I want to see what the disciples saw that they were willing to die for the gospel without a second thought, I want to know what the Apostles saw, I want to see what the great men of faith saw that made them abandon everything in pursuit of God?"
I want to have a conviction that nothing can shake, I want to reach the point of no return, I want to be like the Hebrew boys and stick with God no matter what may come my way, like Job that even with all the mishap that came his way still stuck it out with God. I want to know what my spiritual father sees that makes him talk with such conviction and makes him talk with such authority and confidence. A lot of us read that scripture; ‘’I know whom I have believed’’ but do you really? Have you reached the point where absolutely nothing can steal your heart from God? Are you giving Him your all? God has already told us in His word that nothing can separate us from His Love, can you say the same about your love?
I don’t want to have just head knowledge, I need to have experiential knowledge. I want to be like David that was jealous for the dignity of God, he confronted the uncircumcised philistine in anger; how dare he terrorize the people of God, how dare he disregard the authority and power of the most High God? I never want to be afraid to stand for God, I don’t want to be scared by the concept or idea of casting out demons. I want to be able to pray for the sick without an iota of doubt in my heart that God is able to heal them.
Few days ago, a friend of mine was talking about how God has become so real to him now, how he has found something that he is willing to die for and I could literally hear the passion in his voice, like yes this is someone who knows what he is talking about. I want to be able to talk about God like that, to be able to sing about Him like that, such that people can hear the love and passion in my voice, they can feel my dedication, the burning desire in my heart, I want to want God so much its contagious, to love Him so much It’s infectious.
God is not so far that He cannot be found,
“And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart” -Jeremiah 29:13
I feel like this verse of Scripture says this because, the mysteries of heaven are so sacred, so precious and so they cannot be given to just anybody, you have to prove that heaven can trust you, that you want it really bad before it can be revealed to you. This verse also shows that God can be found so my advice to myself and to you is, Isaiah 55:6 “Seek the Lord while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near.”
There’s this post a friend of mine made recently about the price, he said, “ Essentially, the degree of value we put on God and His kingdom is demonstrated in not just how much of a priority He is to us but how much we are willing to pay to get Him.”
What are you willing to ‘lose’ in order to know God, to have God, is there anything that is too much for you to give? Or any length too far for you to go?